5.12.06

It's the time of the month, girls.

And so it is! No cramps as yet. Just PMS. I forgot my purpose to blog. Surely not to tell the world it's the time of the month.... Lemme see.............

Ok, yup. And indeed, the the time where I have alot to think about. Where works seeks my commitment, intelligence, communication, my other world, which evolves around mainly the comp, meetings, trainings seek my commitment, coorporation, motivation, examplary act of being punctual, whihc is inevitable since I'm not in the school precinct due to SIP. And why the hell am I speaking English? My brain juices are indeed working, and pumping juices out.

To begin my period was, a text msg from Fid, whom, pointed out my sweetest mistake. In the time to rush for submission, I lost focus on the rima on patani.Gawd. Why didn't anybody pointed out way earlier? When I finished my patani part long before? I had known all along there'd bound to be mistakes, which I did not deliberately do. I'm still kinda pissed with myself for overlooking that. So much for rushing. Two working days to complete it. (working day or what. Reminded me again of my yet to receive pay) Minus points, anyway.

But don't be discouraged, girls.That is if you are reading this. We'll work out on other parts. I have to make sure 7 people to proof read the set before I hand in for any submission. I hope the judges will not have any idea who Mawar Hitam is.

Now I know what exactly that brings me to blog, when I should be in bed, reading myself to sleep. Obviously, it's the attendance which has not been doing well. I don't think I should blog in our blog.It's my two cents not even worth it. So, if you tune in to my blog, you'll read.Maybe you can just exit my blog. pooft.

See girls, the problems that often lies in us are, attendance and manpower. When I thought I've tackle the manpower problem, the attendance start making noise. Maybe you girls think I or rather these I/Cs should be more lenient about attendance.Yup, lenient is the word. Yet it does not apply to our trainings, especially when the word COMPETITION exists along those lines. Intense should be the word that compliments the latter. And I think I've been too lenient.

At the number of manpower we have, we should be coping well with the attendance. That is what should be happening right now. Again I thought to myself, could it be a problem with the seniors that the juniors think it's right to follow.If it is, what is that? Seriously, what scares me most is that word COMPETITION, when the attendance is not even close to 30%. Doesn't the word COMPETITION ring the bells???

Maybe I should be more optimistic about it, afterall.Yea. i should be open about it, and believe in myself that I can tackle this very problem. Wow! That is sooooo optimistic la. This isn't a plea. But I really hope once the term test's over, I'd see full attendance. The training is going to be very intense.Hence, I don't wish to start any later than 6.45pm.Girls, you've been forewarn.There is no excuse not to skip training when all we have is a term test week, which I doubt many are having more than 3 papers, and a term break which almost all of you are free.

This brings me to another matter. Is it me, or just the communication breakdown? Come for the trainings, and I hope we can re-bond those friendships. Make our journey towards the comp memorable, right? Which, leads to discipline during trainings.And no, I'm not pin-pointing anybody.It's just some basic rules. We can laugh, but let's not laugh too much, or be too engrossed in your own chit-chat/cam-whoring session when every other members are waiting for your precious moments to end. We are all as 1. As such, yea, we share jokes. And keep all those inside jokes to ourselves.

Am I asking too much? Well, human is to err. I don't wish to repeat that same mistake by the previous times. But if I did, tell me. And yes, I'm not the kind of Ain who will shout or reprimand anybody. I prefer keeping quiet. Or rather, keep it to myself. Lesson learnt. Hehs.

Let's make this happen.My second last dreams for us to make it happen.

And bie, stop being so jealous over nothing. I know it's the time of the month.For me. Not you. Cheer up, and I love you.

mawarhitam
kept in the heart
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