11.11.06

mendak. sungguh mendak.

My Saturday will soon be gone. Wasted just like dat. Yep. With a snap of the finger. I'm not that mad. Just hmm. Itz just gone. Yep. Gone. They had much more fun without me. Well, he said there's no need to go. So, I thought, being me, I'd comply. And I freaking-ly thought it was gonna be a "bachelors" outing. OKay, "bachelors" raya shit. Watever u name it la. Then how come my niecey got to go????

It doesnt make sense anyway. You're going like only for half-a-day, yet u pay $5. den rite, it's like say u're goin off at @ 4, beh mlm ader show lagik, how many house can you make it?

I was full of emosi during the weekdays. Period answered why I was so. But it lingered. The emosi lingered. I feel it. I tried, but somehow... wait, was I wrong again? I think I'm writing in circles. hmmmz..

I missed the little friend whom I used to talk to. Prolly she'd been busy. We missed the contact for quite awhile. I supposed she's busy with her O level. Then... I missed my buncha kacau-bilau friends, yep, the twenty-ouh-five khatu batch. And sritemasek batch. They've all been busy. Heh, aku je tak. And have been hoping for this batch or atleast some to return n play for khatu and pentas b4 we grad.

Ya, everything is never forever. Somewhere, somehow it will just perish. To some it may be gone just like that. There's more to come. BUt there are others who still treasure the feelings and bondings we used to share. Esp the kene maki part. I miss u, Kak Ikin!!

It was a very short period. But the memories lived. Pentas Wayang can make Mamat krinting-bastero cried,apatah lagi aku. It was the begining of new friendships. And I hope those friendships live. Eh, ape ni kawan2. Lama2 jadi musibat jugak kan. *shrugs*

I didn't realise this whole mendakness of my Saturday actually got something out of me. It only half past eight now. How slow time past. And it's 3 weeks gone to my SIP. That's how fast it is. I feel it. Nope, I did nt dread my SIP. It's been ermm... 3 or more hours of me sitting here. At my desktop. Lappy's with Sissy. And he's not even texted me. He's mad at me. And I'm mad at my Saturday. Saturday siakkkk. Can you imagine me, not going anywhere on Saturday.

Ok, wait. I did.After I was sort of nagged at for not taking my "niat" to take class 3 liscense seriously, I went out. Urgh. It's not like I got the money to enrol rite? And yes, I know how long this things take okay. So, stop pressurizing me! Confirm nanti dpt pay, kene nag lagi. Wah, org tua ni makin tua, makin la nagging jadi hobby baru. That's the very reason, I'd rather be out, doing something. And i'm making myself busy as possible.

So,I just went to skool, to take the freaking new yet ugly matric card. Then, I thought I could manipulate his mind to meet me. I failed. Certified failure. I ended up lunching with Sha and Hannah @ LJS. And, err.. sorta window-shopped again. Yelah, takde duit nak beli ape.. kan? And I'm running out of outfits to wear to work. SISSY: if you're reading, i've got one of the things you wanted for your hantaran.

And when SHa and Hannah gotta go, I decided to go lib. I miss lib. So, books again. I was looking for the book entitled "How to be a budget fashionista." Lib miskin agaknya. Blum beli. So, I settled with crime fictions again. AH... speaking of which, it reminded me of the new epidemic. I got almost all the youngsters in my family addicted to Prime Suspect. Even one of my supervisors and the APD people. And, I missed my lappy. I wanna play HUntsville and Apprentice.

Humour me, someone! I think, I've got nothing else to blog about. The time is running slow. He's still not texting me. So, I thought when I blog, I could make the time go a bit faster.

I felt unimportant to ya. Our time seldom coinside uh.

mawarhitam
kept in the heart
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