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Kepo-ness
# Kepo-hits
Can I divide myself into two? Of all the things.. of all the events that can happen around the corner, why must it be the Bussorah Street Show?? It's a national event. And I clearly wanna participate. And urgggghhhhhh.. You won't know much much it hurts to know that I can't perform. Reason? I can't foresee whether TP will be able to make it to the semis & finals next week 4 Pesta Pantun.
My heart is crying. No, you won't understand. And I am controlling the tears on the verge of my eyes as I am typing.
So what if TP don't make it? I still couldnt perform. I've to confirm my decision by today. Dammit. I've lost all my spirits to continue my not-progressing multimedia project. Who can I ever turn to? My team mates? I don't even know what the pantuns are. Ok, so I've been promoted to a reserve. But still???!! I am at lost of what the hell is going on. I know nuts about anything. It's like there's a dk comp coming up and you know nothing about the song or ragam..
Ok, Ain.. don't cry, u idiot..
So what if TP makes it to the semis? I wont be able to concentrate. I know myself. TRIED & TESTED. Like there was one time, I'll be sitting for Physics O Level prelims on Monday. On the weekends, there was 1 comp.. Okay Citra to be exact. I was not allowed to go, but to study at home. You know what I did @ home? I slept through out while wondering what was happening there. INSTEAD of studying. And of course, knowing I was weak in Physcis or any science-related thingy, I'd fail.. So? Go along lahh.. And obviously I failed. Yeahhh... Oh, that includes the ARM paper I failed cuz of some wedding.
Even now.. Anybody hinder my plans.. I will find ways to achieve it. I don't care. I know myself best. And people.. STOP pushing me.
Will there be anybody to come see me?
mawarhitam
kept in the heart
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