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Kepo-ness
# Kepo-hits
"Go on and say what you wanna say. You're a freakin' loser, a bad son, a bad fren, a bad lover.. Whatever. And I don't give it any freakin' shit! The way you put it seems like you're not convinced of HIS help & guidance to you. No one's gonna say chill or relax. No one. Yes, it has always been so tough to be us. To be your ownself. But look, everyone - each and everyone - is special. OK, I am not the Miss Ouh-So-good to tell you off. What's Hi-5 for? Just to share your fake smile and laughter? If you think it is, well, I don't think so. We each have our own set of problems. Our past brought us together. So why couldn't we just be there for each other? What am I for, if I couldn't even be of a listening ear to you? Dammit it. Damn all of you. Itz the holy month of Ramadan, yet this is how you see in life? You're such an ungrateful creature. Hurting yourself will only add on to your sin, you moron. *Dilahirkan sesempurnanya manusia, tapi mencacatkan diri sendiri* If only you could read my lips right now. B-O-D-O-H. You have no idea how much we care for you. Let me tell you something. In simple words, you're not a LOSER. You're simply immatured. Got it? If you are matured enough to think why things happened, though not to the way you want it to be, you wouldn't even think of it this way you're thinking. Why couldn't you be strong enough to endure what's happening? K, I dunnoe any freakin' thing that's happening to you, cuz you never have that courage and confidence to share with me. Why I could still be frank to you and share my thoughts? Itz tough being me, too. Being torn. But I could still tell you. I hate the way your mind works. Hey hey, Wake up!! You're not that young, a kid anymore. Tell me, how you're gonna face the real world like this? Look, KID, when the simple things in this world is made complicated, you whine n cursed yourself. You claimed you've tried. Why, when you've tried, you never seem to be able to simplicate those complicated things? You even doubt HIM, your Creator. Damn you. You think I want a best friend who doubts what his God can give? You're never patient, KID. True, you don't want to trouble any of us, Hi-5er. BUt you're not being fair to us as well. To me. And you're not being true to yourself either. You're right. No one's to blame. Only you yourself. I blame you for it, Kid. Btw, what's your age? Sorry, I've forgotten, been too old. Well, but at this age and you still haven't pass your teenage angst period? Wow. You're indeed the clown, kid. Let me tell you. THIS is NOT the time to do what you're doing... Hurting yourself and cursing even your dad. *Anak ape tu? Tak tahu nk mendoakan ayah ibu..Sebaliknye menyumpah seranah* Itz high time you sit on that prayer mat and seek HIS forgiveness. You've broken your promise to her to be the nice guy. And you think her soul can rest in peace, knowing you in this condition? The problem lies with you, Kid. You claim you need no sympathy rite? Suit yourself. So now I know how you're going to turn out like. It was stated in your entry before. Go and figure how you can help yourself. But by hurting yourself, is doing you no good. Unless you like seeing yourself become physically not okay. You know the real you, uh. FINE. You hate your life? I hate mine too. And I hate you for it."
This is all I could say. To my heart's content. Now, don't you ever dare talk to me, unless you stop all those nonsensical things you did to yourself and start to be closer to your Creator. I don't need you to promise me anything. But promise yourself. No matter how bad your parents ever treat you, they are still your parents. Itz because of their "perfect mistake" that you're here. Itz because of them that you live now. If they had not loved you, you wouldnt be with your family now. I know who I am. I couldn't say much. Why would I go all out, anyway? Just to see each of Hi-5er happy? Itz because I love you all. They may treat you bad. But the least you could do for them is, pray for them. Anak yang baik adalah anak yang mendoakan ibu-bapanya. They may not know now. BUt insya-Allah, some day. IN fact, they may not know at all. But itz your prayers that will bring them to Heaven, insya-Allah. Sejahat mana pun seseorang anak itu, sejauh mana pun dia berlari, orang tua merekalah yang selalu mendoakan kesejahteraan mereka dan menantikan kepulangannya dengan penuh setia. You know why I say this. Cuz I shared with you. BUt you wouldn't even wanna share with me what's goin thru your mind. I don't need you to apologize to me, even. BUt apologize to yourselfand your parents. You know I won't acknowledge you as my best friend if you do those stuffs and back to being your old self. Because that is NOT my friend. YOu know me, kid.
"Andai bersuara tu bererti biadab, lebih baik biadab karna sekurang-kurangnya mereka tahu akan isi hati ni. Aku enggan mendendam rasa dan menyiksa jiwa" - Mawar Hitam
P/s: And be sure to seek their forgiveness by Syawal. And don't bother to speak to me if you're still the way you are now. Hah, where's the MR NICE GUY who promised the poor soul he'd be? Inilah padahnya bile janji tak tertunai. Termakan dek janji sendiri.
mawarhitam
kept in the heart
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