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# Kepo-hits
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And so.. only now that I realise how tough it has always been to lead. The ups and downs of those I admired, but they are diferent though. Mine has always been the tough one. My life has always been the complicated one since YOUNG. Yes, bear that, since young. You don't know my history, just shut up. It is just so tough when you being the one laden with the huge responsibility, to see your friends laughed at you and the others who are not at all any part of the group. Is that a JOKE? The mic thingy? The things we did, just so that the bloodymic just wouldn't work? Only to see the people who actually played that set before, to laughed and made a joke out of that set? No one knows how tough we went through that set that time. Some of you people who laughed at us, were the ones involved. Yet you laughed. I was indeed disappointed. You people were not there when I need you the most. To go through thick and thin with me. To bring up our already-tarnished name. You make it worst. How can I ever assure the younger ones that we are all ok? I know they'll never be assure of that. How can I ever tell them we can do it? When half of the seniors were not at all there to give their support?
TO ALL MY FRESHIES, NEWBIES & THOSE WHO HELPED, WE HAVE DONE OUR VERY BEST TO PUT UP THAT SHOW. DO NOT BE DISAPPOINTED. DON'T BE DISHEARTENED. TOGETHER WE CAN MAEKTHE VERY BEST OF US, ONE SWEET DAY.
I may smile at those remarks and wth compliments. But eventually the barriers to the tears just could not take it at hand. To a particular someone, should you be reading this, have you got a problem with your old team mates? You went away, and I don't know if you had turn your back at us. I know I don't make a good frontman; as good as u? Sisterly love, indeed. To everyone, THANX EH.
I had wanted to quit. Yes I did thought of that. I don't make a good leader at all. Had I been a good leader, I would have been able to make you girls stay and not go away then laughed at me and the rest. Probably you meant that as a joke, because you girls do not know what I have been through all along. I only have outsiders and freshies to count on. Thank God they were willing. Had it not been for two particular people, I would have long quitted. On the contrary, who else would bother to bring back the name we've had if I quit? Things would be different. Our name are tarnished, after that incident. I know people have been making speculations. Go on and be a hypocrite u nuts. I know. All those sarcasms.
I risked it all I have. I am going to bring back that name. The name that has a place in my heart. Go on and laugh at me for all I care. So long as I stay, I am gonna bring back that tarnished name. So long as I know, I am not going to care a fig should you people have a problem with me. Just stop your bloody nonsense in front of me. We have always been the main outcasts of the whole group. Been treated like as though we are porcelain dolls. We were physically there, just that I guess we are of two different worlds, uh.. Don't act like a goody-two-shoes; just to show that you people "care". Subgroups are supposed to help each other in times of needs. So why can't a friend from another subgroup help another subgroup in need of help? IS THAT A CRIME? *Kene saman ke tolong kawan? Tapi kononnye tu, diri sendiri bole la pulak nk menolong org lain ehh.. Lakonan kalian dah basi.*
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At least he made my day. Bumped. Chatted. I don't know if that is a mere coincidence. But I know that somehow, he is just like his other half. LOL.
mawarhitam
kept in the heart
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