21.9.04

"Pendek kata.." "Ouh, Panjang tak kata apa-apa?"

Am i being paranoid?? I'm juz being plain insecured. Mebbie datz teenage life..so like 2-minute maggi.Got it? We can b so fickle-minded to the extend that we tend to change our mind every now and then. Juz g0t the news dat Melissa is backing out. Then, who's gonna be the karut??? Sure thingy Na'im gonna kol up the old karut, whoever she mebbie..Gawd,itz only 4 more trainings,sia. We desperately nid a karut who can memorise the lyrics by friday and get the tune done.*side tracked*

Back 2 my original story..If possible i do not want 2 be labelled "perigi cari timba". (but it owaes turn out dat way, though) watever it is, i'd rather c those my loved-ones all hepi. i've always been hurt; time & again. so mebbie it'll remain lyk dat till the end of time. can;t figure out if its lust or love, infatuation or crush... actually from the start (dis is wat some frenz & kuzzie comments), i'm the kind who's terribly hard 2 fall in love, but wen i did, itz 4 a long period of time.Peeps may c me having crushes, but i owaes stick 2 one whom i've fallen 4.. e.g. Ayul & Asim.. While my peeps keep changing one after another, i'm wif Ayul (and we were g00d frenz b4 dat), after the silent break, den Asim come into my life, nvr known each other, but u noe i noe la kan.. BUt since anticipating 4 a clever bugger lyk him... (@ the same time Adek oso lyk him..and me not pretty enuf, so juz too bad she's beautiful).Den, in 2002 i got 2 noe ***.. Well, these guys are in the same scene, duh. And the latter is the Who i am anticipating for, even knowing the last time that he's attached (i'm the information counter, ya noe).. ouh, and by the way, i'm frenz wif Asim n0w.. Dat never cr0ss my mind. So, miracles do happen when u least expect it. Who noes, if i stop anticipating 4 him, a miracle might 0ccur. We never know...

Where can i find a sincere someone? Bc0z if i'm attached w/some1 whom i dun haf feelings 4, itz n0t gonna be 4 long, beb. E.g. Aidil was b4 Ayul and lasted 4 only 20 sympathetic days. Then Ayul, 3 abt 3 mths.. Then was single 4 5 yrs...When dat bastard, Rafi Leman came.. thinking dat i shall n0t anticipate 4 ***, i try out wif the bastard. Instead i ended up craving 4 the Who dat grab my attention. He's n0t any guy who's g0t the l00ks (as i said times b4).Juz attracted 2 his eyes, smile...Any1 will, but he instantly leaves a mark here, 2 yrs back wen i saw him @ BRU..

Juz wanna tell my peeps dat whenever i get the ones we love, we will treasure every inch of that person, every little time we had wif them will be fond memories..And i will never ever regret it. Let it be known, i'll never regret..

p/s: learnt sumthing g00d during Ms Faridah's INE lec today.. SMILE if u smile, things will go the easier path..SMILE it will brighten up ur day..so my frenz, SMILE, ok???

mawarhitam
kept in the heart
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